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9 Month Reflection

Yesterday marks 9 months since I lost my oldest son. Sometimes I think the only thing that has been pushing me forward is this looming house deadline. March 14th. We have to have everything done and ready to go by March 14th and we haven’t broken ground on the actual house. We have a meeting on Tuesday to discuss the whole digging of trenches for our foundation. Hopefully we’ll be digging within the next month because snow will be happening soon.
I digress. This post isn’t about the house. It’s about lessons I’ve learned over the last 9 months.
The first thing I learned was just how many sleeper friends I had. I’ll be honest here, we’re pretty hermity and both Mike and I are pretty introverted. I’m probably more of an extroverted introvert just because my entire “work” existence before all of this was customer service. So I’ve learned how to just deal with being around people. So I always felt as if I had a lot of acquaintances, but few people I would call a close friend simply because I tend to keep a lot of walls in place. This may be one of those things which has been shifting. A LOT of things have shifted for me in the last 9 months. So after all this, I realized that my friendship circle was a little wider than I previously thought it was.
In that same process of thought, I also realized (again) who my real friends are.
I am beginning to believe that traumatic events exist to remind us of our journey and also to clean out the clutter so to speak. It solidifies or dissolves those bonds which have been strained or have never really been established. It pushes us to change and grow.  To examine our lives and to leave the behind those things and ideas which do us a disservice.

After my son passed, I poured myself into a lot of random crap. I started a whole bunch of new hobbies to busy my mind. I forced myself to go to many free local functions to meet the community and become a part of society. I took a psychic and self development class, and at some point I made it my goal to “know the unknown.”
Unrealistic of course, but I think that class and declaration have made my journey more insightful, and has shaped my thinking more than anything else. One of the most recent class sessions was with a gentleman who is a self taught geology hobbyist. I know that’s not a real term, but that’s what I’m calling it. Our discussion with him was more eye opening for me on a personal level than anything else to this point. We talked a lot about tools in psychic sense and how you use tools to do your work, etc etc so I realized that I just needed to find the right tools for my life, to navigate. We all just need to find out what our tools are. Maybe it’s meditation or yoga. Maybe it’s that soccer league you do after work or on weekends. Maybe it’s wrenching on cars or turning wood in the shop, but these are also tools for processing your life.
The other part of the discussion had a lot to do with judgement. We are all on a journey, and our journey is our own. When we judge everyone around us, we do them and ourselves a disservice.  So before we judge someone else for not being in the same place as us, we should think about the times when we didn’t remotely have our crap together and see how we could easily be making the same choices as the person we are judging. It was a wake up call to how judgemental I’ve been for awhile. It completely changed my views on everyone around me. A lot of anger that I’d been holding on to seemed pointless when I sat down and looked at it. Being out here has also given me the unique perspective of realizing how little so much of life actually matters. It is the journey, my friends.
Your journey is your own. We went to the Sanctuary Center in Sedalia this week with my class, and one of the exercises was to walk this path in the labyrinth. Mike had attended with me, and we were the last two in the labyrinth because I took my sweet time elsewhere. At one point, I looked over to him and was going to go take his hand and finish the walk out with him, but at that moment I had a realization that while we may be on the same path, we are each on our very own journey. So he walked his path and I walked mine. We were together, but also very much alone.
Your journey is your own. Your path may be shared with so many others, but your journey is your own.

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Our Tractor, One Eye

It’s time for our weekly video!

In this week’s video, we are trying to get One Eye running. One Eye is our 1950 Ford 8N tractor. We got her in June 2017, and she ran roughly, but she ran. She crapped out shortly after we got her, and sat dormant for awhile.

We replaced the cylinder head, head gasket, sediment bowl, carburetor, distributor, rubber fuel line (with hard line), and eventually the battery before she came back to life.

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Heating the New House

It was in the 40s when I woke up this morning. A lovely, brisk, grey morning. I love misty mornings in the mountains, though the cloud ceiling was pretty high today.

The chill in the air makes me think about the wood stove here and I got to thinking about our discussions on heating the new place. We’ve been discussing getting a pellet stove, but I asked if we would still smell like wood smoke, and Mike said, “no.”

I looooooove smelling like a camp fire.

When I have to spend time away from here, I get back, hug Mike and smell the woodsmoke on his clothes. It’s like your fondest memories of camping have come back to embrace you and remind you of nights spent outside under the stars.

So now I wonder, do I really want to deprive myself of this? I mean, there are definitely drawbacks. One room is 10,000,000° while the rest of the place is 60°, and there’s a layer of ash coating everything I own, but beyond that it’s awesome! Lol

Perhaps once we’re moved in, I’ll just have to stomp up here a couple of times per week, fire up the wood stove, and spend some time on the couch with a good book.

This place has a furnace as well. I don’t know if we’ve decided whether or not to have the furnace in the new place. I guess we’ll have to sort that out.

Wow. I think the heat actually just kicked on.

It’s definitely fall at the ranch!

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Weekly Video is posted!

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Bonus Video of the Week!

I’ve uploaded a little video about the furry critters out here on the ranch.

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Friday Night Video!

Okay, this is our first ever scheduled Friday night video! I’m super excited to post this, and plan to make this a regular Friday night thing. Every Friday 7PM Mountain time.

This week’s video is pretty much just a sequence of some of the stuff we had to do to get the driveway ready for the permit process. There were a few issues that needed to be addressed. The gate needs to be 30 feet back from the road, the driveway was washed out where it met the road, and the gate probably had never been opened once it was put in.

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Bonus Video!

We acquired a couple of tools to help with the filming and editing process. We tested one of those tools our yesterday, and I look forward to regularly using footage to enhance our video presentations of Lazy A-Hole Ranch!

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New Video Alert!

I’ve been going through some of the older footage I had, now that I’m able to actually edit stuff, and I’ve put together a small video of Mike helping me out and dragging up possible teepee poles on his mom’s property. I think most of these were more firewood candidates than teepee poles, but a couple of them should be pretty good. The teepee obviously never materialized this summer. Depression and grief combined with the heat and pain issues just made things fizzle out for me.

I view it as a good thing though. Looking back, it was kind of a desperate push forward to do things rather than deal with the stuff life handed to me in this past year. Now I plan to do more research on the project and to be better prepared for next spring. Winters are pretty mild so far, so I can do some harvesting and stripping of poles during the warmer days, and I can experiment with some sewing stuff and then really decide whether it makes more sense to purchase a pre-made cover from someone local or if I want to make it myself. There are pros and cons to each method. I may also visit the possibility of creating more of a pavilion type setup instead. I have options.

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Winter is coming

I’m beginning to see some discarded, yellow aspen leaves scattered about the property.

Mike repaired his camera this week, and so we wandered about yesterday shooting photos and enjoying the cool air.

Miláček looking for his next target

The thing I love about art, and life, is how subjective it all is. You can all stand around staring at the same thing and still see something completely different.

Lens Ball in use at the Ranch